Thanksgiving and other weirdness with my family.

I haven't been feeling super well the past few days so i didn't make any plans for thanksgiving.  But i knew that if i did stay home and do nothing, like i wanted, that i probably would have felt worse.  So i talked to my mom and asked what she was doing and she said she was going to my brother wesleys. I talked to him and asked if i could come and he said yes.  I asked if i could bring anything and he said drinks.  I went out to my mothers the night before and decided to spend the night.  We watched tv and went to ponderosa to eat.  Nothing spectacular.  So my cell phone doesn't get service in Gowanda so I have to actually leave the town to get even a tiny bit of service.   Like it's not even low service.  The moment i get cross the town line and big red X shows up where the cell service gauge is.  I got a few happy thanksgivings and replied and sent a few myself then went to mcdonalds for breakfast and coffee for me and my mom.  I found out that dinner wasn't until 4.  We usually have dinner at 1 so all i thought was that my whole day is ruined.  My brother isn't that great at doing ANYTHING on time so we didn't have dinner til closer to five.  And it was just awkward for me.  I've been awkward around my family for years.  i talked to my sponsor and told him what was going through my head and a few other things and he thinks we should sit down and talk about it.  I absolutely agree.  One of the things that made me uncomfortable was that over the summer when i took my mom to the rolling stones concert my brother said he and his wife would think about going.   The deal was that if I bought my moms ticket and they bought their own that they'd take her.  I didn't necessarily want to go.  Well they never got back to me so on the day the tickets went on sale i bought two and i ended up taking her.   We actually had a good time.  My mom hates strangers more than I do and she was talking to the guy next to her and the lady behind us.  Well since that whole thing went down my brother and I haven't exchanged many words since.  So part of that was going through my head but honestly i know it was me that was making myself uncomfortable.  I ended up bailing as soon as i could after dinner and made my way back to my apartment and was kind of ok for the most part.  I was as ok as i could be with the stuff that's going on in my life.  Cut to Saturday night/Sunday morning at 130AM and me going over to Nates to watch charmed.  I'll write more about that in the next entry because right now i just don't have it in me to re hash it right now.