spending money.

So if you know me  you know I like to spend money.  And most of the time on something I don't need or something that I could use but it's not a necessity.  Well from buying a new tv and a new laptop I got two $5 gift certificates from best buy.  And what did I do with those?  I bought a new IPod.  So they give me 10 bucks and I spent another 180 cuz I bought the iPod and you can't buy an iPod without buying a case.  The last thing I might do is on Sunday there's Trans Siberian Orchestra and I've always wanted to see it.  I might say fuck everyone and go by myself.   BTW Sunday is my birthday and I can do whatever I want.  And, since Nate likes to be cryptic won't tell me when he's going home.  So I think i'm going to be giving him his Christmas gifts that night.  So far this week I've been there three nights.  Which is cool, I dig it.  Although last night I couldn't sleep and he normally has crazy sleep patterns but when i'm there he sleeps like a log.  Last time I mentioned that to him he said had a better day at work and could get addicted to days like that.  Last night though I couldn't get to sleep and he was passed out so I was playing on Instagram and snapchat for a while.

Nnow the only thing that I have to do today is go to the gym.  I don't think i'm seeing him tonight but he's in charge of that. 

After doing my inventory I see things around me that I unintentionally do a lot.  It's funny because sometimes these things are pointed out by anyone.  Like the other night I went over to Nate's and he said he was hungry and since I was feeling a lot of guilt over doing something that made him feel bad I kept offering to go get us food.  Finally he asked why I was doing that I told him because I felt guilty.  And he told me not to do things for him out of guilt.  Turns out I do that a lot with my mom and doing things because I've felt guilt for when I was still drinking.  Going from my last homegroup to this homegroup it's two totally different worlds.  There's some stuff that I carried over that they like (like my level of commitment to things I say i'll do), and putting newcomers first (although that needs some tweaking).   All the stuff that I've lacked up until the point isn't going to get fixed in a month or two.  But I am moving forward and that's what I wanted.  I felt as though I wasn't growing spiritually at my other group.   Just like my former sponsors, that group took me as far as they could and I needed to move on. 

Lastly, I enjoyed star wars.  After Nate and I watched it we went to a diner and got food, then went back to his place.