My new friend..

He's more than a friend.  I don't want to get into too much detail.  I'll say he's definitely something.  I like being with him.  I like the way i feel when i'm with him.  I've always been a bigger kid so i think i might have mentioned in passed posts that i might always be self conscious of my body.  He makes me forget about those things.  He likes the physical imperfections.  He makes me feel sexy.  He caught me off guard once when he told me to not move when i was getting dressed.  Not because something was wrong..  He was just taking in the view.  I've never had that before.  A guy..  No..  A SMOKIN HOT guy that makes me forget the rest of the world exists.  He's a guy guy.  He likes to play sports, and has a deep voice, and there's nothing "fem" about him at all.  But he loses that when i kiss him a certain way and becomes giggly.  It's also really funny when he says i can't text him before work because he doesn't wanna be all smiley and goofy in front of his coworkers.  I think it's cute.

Something weird happened the other day and i sent him a message.  And i'm not sure if it's the message that changed it or what but he got a little more into me after i sent it.  I said "Just so we're clear I'm not talking to anyone else, or even online.  It's your business if you are, but I don't get down like that."  And since then it's all cool.

It's super early to say if it'll be anything.  At the moment, I'd like it to be.  But I also don't want this to turn into one of those lesson learning relationships that'll make me better equipped for the next guy.  It's weird that NOW i'm not at all worried about the future of this relationship.  He makes me happy, and from what i can tell he's happy with me.

Did I forget to mention HE'S SMOKIN HOT!!!!

HE IS!!!

I've spent a few nights and we're napped together.  sleeping next to each other is not at all uncomfortable.  He's easy to cuddle with and we can big spoon/little spoon in either direction and it works.  I will try to write more when and if things happen.

Whether or not it ends up working out.  It's an experience that needs to have been had, and has it's significance.