Do I wanna be philisophical, theoretical, or umm.. not.

Everything happens for a reason..?? I do thoroughly believe that, yes. Do I want it to be true? Only when it works out in my favor. Come on, I'm just being honest. Not only does it totally suck to come to that realization (fun new way of saying epiphany) with my life's speed bumps, but then I talk to people and things get pointed out to me. There's been times in my life when I want to forget the "bad" things and just move on. (Ok let me say something first.. I don't necessarily believe this is a bad thing, but it does suck) But even that is a thought that centered around just me. What if he does just need time to think?? Right now I'm just chock full of "what if's." As for now it's the waiting game. I wanted to just move on and be in control of the situation but it was pointed out that maybe I need to wait too. BUZZKILL. It's not a full on heart pain. I don't nearly know him well enough to have that. It's more of a dull ache. I want a normal, stable guy.. cute helps too but normal and stable is key. ONE DATE!!!! If your keeping up on this rant then you know what that means.. go back a few days and read it.. or feel free to re-read the entire account of the date and the events the followed. But today.. Today..?? Today I'm fogged... or would it be befogged?? Tay would know. Either way you know what I mean. You know those things football players use to pretend tackle?? That's what I feel like I'm doing but it's not moving. Tomorrow will be better..