A date, a Mistake, and not enough time in the day..

So what did I get out of this entire experience.. I'm not ready to date.. I take most of the responsibility for the mistake. I eluded to him not wanting to talk to me. I had a bad morning and the night before I was almost used to not talking and we sent a few texts back and forth to each other 2 each to be exact about how he dozed off and I replied with something generic, and he said something else and I said something else then that was it. He did text me randomly one night to ask me if I was awake. What did I fail to see?? WE ONLY WENT ON ONE DATE!!!! ONE!!!! THAT'S IT!!!! One of the things I saw today online yahoo dating advice.. stupid me decided to read it and one of the things that it said was "is he TOO into you??" and then went on to explain that if right away he's too into you then once your dating he's not that into you he was probably more interested in the chase and conquer rather than an actual relationship. For me that wasn't it. I guess I wanted to do what he didn't wanna do. Attempt rushing into something. The conclusion I've come to (knowing what I know, and doing what I do) was that if it were meant to be then it would be. No questions asked. I can't dwell, and I can't beat myself up. A few major lessons I've taken into account is that I need to take responsibility for my actions though it isn't always ALL my fault, everything can't be done in my time, sorry doesn't undo everything, and it's not all about me. We went on ONE DATE!!! Why am I still beating myself up?? I don't like the feeling that something that I thought could have been good and I let my stupid thinking run it/him away. Sorry didn't fix it though i don't believe it was totally my fault. If you know poker terms.. I was pot committed before the hand was dealt. That's really the best analogy I could come up with on short notice. Either way I'm pretty sure its over and done with.. And because i've been doing what i do and obsessing about it I deleted his phone number and texts, and i'm done too. I sent one last message earlier saying "I'm not sure how to ask if it was over before it started without it sounding bad but at least let me have the courtesy of knowing." not that i deserve that much or maybe I do.. I don't know. Maybe in the long run I was saved from something.. or he was saved from something, or even more semi-horrific and negative... maybe we were saved from each other. Or maybe it was supposed to happen so I'll know how to better treat "the one" and/or value him. But yeah I'm done for now.. on a totally brighter note I went to the under armour store today and got a new under armour jacket for 75 bucks. It's really light and I'm cold in it but it looks fantastic.. haha.. style before comfort.. had to have a happy homo moment..