Quote of the day.. "We are the makers of our own misery."

So the question of the day is as follows.. Are things working out the way their supposed to or are they working out the way that I want them to?? And, is that one in the same or no? It seemed to me that things were working out the way I wanted them to which totally made me happy. I was let go from a job that I kind of wanted to get away from for months. It made me happy.. I haven't been this happy in a long time. What happens.. The funds started to get low and I was reminded.. I'd be taken care of.. No not a creepy daddy type, sicko. A friend. Well I get a new job that may be a job that I wanted but is it for me or am I settling. Am I limiting myself just because of my financial insecurities? I don't know. That's what's been bothering me. We are the makers of our own misery. Is there something better that I'm shutting off because this job that I have is simpler and was easier to obtain. Or is it the job I'm meant to have? It's not permanent.. It's a stupid serving job. Though it is something I enjoy doing. I enjoy talking to people. It's like putting on a small production with every table. I think I like the attention too. "This is your captain speaking... Just listen to everything I have to say and we'll land safely." Sometimes it's totally demeaning but then there are the times when it's all worthwhile. I've said it before and I'll say it again.. It brings back my faith in people. Money doesn't rule the world though the power of it can't be dismissed. If I wait on a table that doesn't leave me a tip but was a total joy to take care of I'm OK with that. It also points out to me that I don't have people figured out. In the light of I can go to a table and because some people are just jackasses and don't know how to interact with human beings that I'm gonna get a shitty tip. Their just hard people... Sometimes I'm not the nicest guy.. I'm just not. I don't have an intention on coming off as a dick. I don't attempt to even be an ass. But sometimes I do come off that way. So back to what we started with. Surrender or not? I guess we'll know when the time comes. Also, ask and you shall receive has surfaced. There's more info on the job that I have now that might just make this an OK gig. No worries about tomorrow. I have direction.. I have guidance.. I have people that care about me.. I'm loved.. The things I want aren't the things that are missing in my life.

I have everything I need...

Tomorrow will be a good day...