Ever wanna know the music I work out to?? Here it is....

My workout Playlist.. Don't worry for the ones that I wasn't sure if they were something someone reading this wouldn't know, I've added links to the youtube videos. =)

Black Eyed Peas - Pump It
Black Eyed Peas - Boom Boom Pow
David Guetta Feat. Akon - Sexy Bitch
Deadmau5 feat Rob Swire - Ghosts N Stuff http://youtu.be/h7ArUgxtlJs
Dev Feat Cataracs - Bass Down Low
Lady Gaga - Disco Heaven http://youtu.be/Hb7L3ZEg_K4
Lady Gaga - Disco Stick
Far East Movement Feat Snoop Dogg - If I was you (OMG) http://youtu.be/IT3TP1ifpcs
Paul Oakenfold & Brittany Murphy - Faster Kill Pussycat http://youtu.be/kU81dxEpKuk
Britney Spears - Hold it against me
Katy Perry - Hot & Cold
LMFAO - I am not a whore
Black Eyed Peas - Imma Be
Jennifer Lopez Feat. Pitbull - On the Floor http://youtu.be/t4H_Zoh7G5A
Jennifer Lopez Feat. Lil Wayne - I'm into you http://youtu.be/IgLcQmlN2Xg
Lady Gaga - Bad Romance
Nelly Furtado - Maneater
New Boyz Feat Dev & Cataracs - Backseat http://youtu.be/herLMUn2-U0
Black Eyed Peas - My Humps
Missy Elliot - Pass that Dutch
Richard Vission & Static Avenger Starring Luciana - I like that http://youtu.be/UtQbENQ4Zk0
Black Eyed Peas - Rock that Body
Beyonce - Video Phone
Yoalnda Be cool & DCUP - We no speak Americano
Britney Spears - Womanizer
Black Eyed Peas Feat Esthero - Weekends http://youtu.be/cnYiQ2FVG8I
Katy Perry - Waking up in Vegas
Katy Perry - Teenage Dream
Britney Spears - Til the world ends
Ke$ha - Fuck him he's a DJ

Time apparently doesn't heal everything.. Wreckage of the past..

There was a good friend of mine that I thought about a lot the past few years. We didn't leave off on good terms but (almost stupidly) thought that if I saw him that things would after this long be ok. It wasn't... He was the best friend that made an uncomfortable situation comfortable. Well he made it less uncomfortable at least. I went on road trips with this guy, he was good with my family. I fucked up... He was a really good friend, always was. And I fucked up. I'm not completely sure I know where this entry is going. In the beginning I thought I wanted to go back. There's nothing to go back to. It's probably good for both parties that we're no longer friends. I do still have friends in my life that have always truly cared about me. I'm thankful for them I really am. Those that are no longer in my life, it's for good reason. I was going to say probably, but there isn't anything really probable about it. I saw him and his wife at the Italian Fest last weekend. Her and I never really cared for each other. I hated she got to spend so much time with him, she hated that he would drop her and everything to hang out with me and our mutual friends. I walked up to him and tapped him on the shoulder and he turned and I said hi. He said "hi". I said it's good to see him and he replied with "I'm sorry we gotta go." She smiled and rolled her eyes at me and turned away and he turned away too. It was a special kind of hurt. All I could think to myself was, "I'll never make that mistake again." Move on, right? RIGHT!! It's been over 4 years since I've seen him. Time does NOT heal everything. I can't even be mad, which was my first reaction too. I can't be mad at him because he's still mad at me. I just can't. That's stupid. What I can do is just keep doing what I'm doing. The experience has, I think, helped me to attempt to move forward. It was something that I feel I was still holding on to. The day may never come that that particular person may forgive me. I can't beat myself up. I can't obsess about it. I can only move forward. That's what I have.. An experience from pain that helps me to move forward. I've come to find out (no pun intended at all) sometimes the more pain, the better the experience.