Who are you and Who am I???

So the other day while tweeting I said that I'd had an epiphany. I said "I think I could relieve 15% of the stress from my life when I learn to accept people for who they are and not who I want them to be.." And what's happened today in I guess what would be considered a run-on epiphany is that I'm also not good at accepting what people do unless it's what I want them to do. HELLOooooo..~?~?~?~ it was meant to be ?!?!? but i think the tilde's work just fine as well. total tangent but whatever. OK. So when has anyone ever done what I want them to?? Well.. my run-on epiphany formed while I was angry.. In the fact that I wasn't angry at what someone was doing but that they weren't doing what I wanted them to. Can we say vague?? What does that matter.. This blog is about some of my inner workings.. At least it's about some of the ones that I can semi-diagnose (for lack of a better term). Something I read last night is that no one has all the answers. And sometimes.. just sometimes...

And that's it... That's where my rant stopped. Why semi bitch and moan about something as inane as an epiphany? This is the kind of stammering that goes on in my head a lot lately. But honestly, Here and Now... I met an amazing guy, I have a great job, I have a really awesome house, I have people in my life that care about me, and if you took enough time to make it to this point there's probably enough of a connection between us that makes you someone that might just matter a little more in my life than you know. And thank you..

Some people have luck and some people need luck.. Me..?? I'm privileged...

A latte, a missing story, and a date..

I can't tell the entire story I really can't. Morally, there might be someone that could read this and not like who I just went on a date with but let me say it was fantastic. First off, a little about me. I'm overly self-conscious. I've been on dates that went one of two ways. It was either hanging out once and never again or they weren't really who they said they were and aren't what I expected and get attached. Well this experience was totally different. We met online. I guess in the gay world may be a semi-healthy alternative to attempting to meet a guy in a bar. Anyway, we met online and started texting each other. A few nights ago it turned into a half hour phone call then later that night another phone call just over an hour and a half. The following night it was another hour and a half. I liked it. He totally seemed cool but I don't like to put all my eggs in the basket. I don't. Well I went to see Paranormal Activity 2 with Charlene and personally.. I liked it. Well he was maybe supposed to come with us. He had to work at 6 and potentially might have had to work til 10. The movie, on the other hand, started at 1010. Regardless of all of it his mom ended up calling and he had to drive almost 2 hours away to his parents to drive his dad to the doctor this morning so was unable to meet me last night. So tonight was the rain check and we met at Cafe Aroma. But I made mention that I really wanted to sit on a couch. Only because it being our first date I wanted to be as uncomfortably comfortable or comfortably uncomfortable as possible.. You know what I'm saying. Well we walk passed cafe aroma, passed Starbucks and make our way towards Spot Coffee. Long Story short we made out.. a lot. A LOT!!! He's a really good kisser. But while we were still at Spot I got up to get my coffee and he sent me a text message but being the gentleman I am I silenced my phone so I didn't get the message until I sat back down next to him. The message..?? "Ur adorable." I started blushing like there was no tomorrow. I showed him the tweet saying that he was totally cute. But in the first phone convo we had he mentioned that he liked dark chocolate. So what did I do?? I got him some Dark chocolate covered sponge candy, raisins, and peanut clusters. And he bought me my coffee.. Officially the date went well and when we ended it he said "can I call you tonight before I go to bed?" and I said yes... I'm gonna get ready for bed and get ready for my phone call. More to come... I hope..