running with a new phone...

So there's a couple new things going on with me. I'm attempting to run regularly.. what's happened so far?? I made it two days and today would be the 3rd and i just couldn't get up. BUT... that doesn't mean it's over. Right?? Let's see how long it lasts this time. I got a new phone.. It's great. I started to get a little skeptical. I started youtubing video's on what other people thought. One gave a really bad review. I started excited then it went downhill. Right away I start thinking well I could send it back and get a different one. Either way what did I do?? Wait it out and come to my own conclusion. It's a rumor touch. Two things I said I didn't want in a phone. A full keyboard, or a touch screen. Now I have both. It's not that bad. The first day I totally just played with my phone. The second day I played around with some of the features. I can't text as fast as I could "the old fashioned way" with the numbers but I'm not completely used to it yet. I'll get used to it. I like it a little more every day.

2 Similar situations with totally different thoughts

So I went to my favorite shopping place (Wegmans) to get groceries for a late night dinner and... ok wait... About a year and a half ago I was in Target and as I'm checking out the cashier is just being kinda rude. I walk away thinking.. "what a bitch..." After making it approximately 3 more steps the idea pops into my head that she's probably been there all day and has probably been going through her own personal hell with customers. In my head I kinda apologized for having thought that about her. If it were me... I might have acted the same way.. who knows? So tonight I'm at wegmans in the 15 items or less express lane and there's a guy in front of me with 6, 1 liter bottles of coke and in front of him a couple with approximately 45 things. First thing that pops into my head is "WTF!!! Are you seriously going to be 'those people'?" The guy in front of me clearly annoyed and making overly sarcastic comments to the female customer. Her boyfriend walks up and I flash him a look of "really...?" So the man in front of me checks out and I ask the cashier "does that bother you when people do that?" And she replies with... "Not at all." It him me that I may have been completely wrong. It might not have been the couple's fault at all. What if they walked up and there was no one in line and it was the cashier that said to come in her line. The same thing happened. I was more or less apologizing in my head to them. So quick to be narrow minded about people's actions. I felt genuinely bad about flashing them a look. She giggled about being in line with so many things but I was already perturbed a bit so of course it annoyed me. I wasn't being inconvenienced any by this. What was gonna happen? I was going to spend maybe 3 more minutes in a line with no rush to get anywhere. So my lesson today?? Maybe I should just mind my own business and not be so quick to judge. That's all I got tonight...

Family...

Is it too much to try to write about my parents?? Is anyone gonna read it?? At this point I think I might be writing for myself... maybe it's just to get some random things in my head out, or maybe it's to remember it later on... or maybe it's to entertain someone that I'll never meet. Regardless, some moments that stand out. I don't think my family was perfect. My siblings were much older so they were never around but my mom was always there. All of my siblings knew not to make mom angry. I used to think that my little sister was my mom's favorite. In a way she is.. but turns out me and my little sister were both her favorites. She always did everything she could to make sure we were happy. I didn't know half the stuff til we got older. But one time for thanksgiving I was home and my mom and younger sister and sister-in-law were cooking dinner for just over 25 family members and my sister said "bet you wish you didn't have so many kids huh...," and my mom replied with, "yeah... no.. I don't know what I would do without any of you." It still brings a tear to my eye when I think about the day she said that. There was a funny thing that stands out too. DISCLAIMER*** If you are easily offended skip to the next set of three stars... So I'm telling my best friend what she said and I get home with him and say "MOM!!, I told aaron what you said about not being able to change diapers on white babies because they remind you of turkeys." She said "I NEVER SAID THAT!!! I said they remind me of chickens..." hahahahaha *** Just had to get that out. When she gets together with my aunts from Tennessee they are the epitome of bumbling old ladies. She was always really good with my friends, even the ones she didn't like. My best friends she still asks about. About a year ago I couldn't think of a good reason to have her come spend time with me so I had to make a plan. Her and I aren't the normal type of people to just me say to her "hey.. I wanna spend some time together come visit me." Oh no.. that's much to passe.. I had to call her and say "I don't know how to make tacos will you come cook with me?" It worked. She even brought her own pans.. Why?? She knows how they cook. I can cook. Mostly from stuff she taught me but I'm good at cooking but put her in a kitchen and it's great to watch. I got my start cooking just like all the rest of my siblings.. Egg sandwiches. She taught us once and that's all we were allowed to cook. Of all my married older brothers only one has a wife that can cook. All of the others cook for their wives and children. We used to play games with her and my step-father Fred. We'd always ask him to do something and he'd yell "Go ask your mother." Then we'd ask her and she'd say "Go ask Fred." Then, we'd go back to him and say "she said it's ok if you say it's ok," and he'd always say "I don't care." Then if we got in trouble we'd blame him.. kinda funny if you think about it. He caught on after a while though... I mean come on 4 kids all playing the same game. Then he just started saying no. The night before I left for college he gave me "the talk". We went for a walk, which we've never done, and he said "If you go out don't leave your drink sitting there.. someone could put something in it, and always wear a rubber." Short, sweet, and to the point. Only once he made me cry.. About a year ago he and my mom came to visit me and I gave my mom a hug and I was just gonna shake his hand and he pulled me in for a hug and said "I'm so proud of you." Cue the tears... I remember in college the sheer panic and terror when I got a phone call that he'd had a heart attack. His special diet lasted about 3 weeks then he went back to my mom's food. dude.. if you had my mom's food you would too. When I was 10 I tasted my friends mom's spaghetti and it tasted like vom and raw meat. I thought all mom's cooking was good... that day.. not so much. I can't imagine how it would have turned out without either one of them. Sneaking into the bedroom at night when we were younger so they could play nintendo, putting out chips and pepsi for santa claus, sneaking us food whenever one of us was in the hospital, and the list goes on. I don't know what inspired me to blog about this but I'm sure she and he would have been happy if either of them knew how to work a computer or the internet. haha ~Love Randy

My significant other, and everything in between...

This is a subject that has been coming up and it is something I've been thinking about. If it's meant to be then it will be, if not... I have the "ideal" situation for a significant other in my head as well as his "ideal" character. My ideals for a significant other change as I change. I'm sure they won't be the same a year from now as what they are currently, and now are totally different from what they were a year ago. I don't want to start with physical attributes, so let's start with generally what I'd like. The biggest thing I could want for my "ideal" man is to be able to get along with my friends. That's the biggest thing... Even at this point I'm sitting here staring at the screen for about five minutes thinking what else I could want and I'm totally drawing a blank. I could think of a million situations of how a perfect time would be but I think it's not the situation but the person/people (significant others and friends alike) that make the moment. I heard a joke a while back about a man that was searching for the perfect woman and he found women of all types and the joke goes on to explain some of the types he ran across until he finally found the perfect woman and the friend that he's telling the story to asks him what happened and he replies with, "it didn't work out, turns out she was looking for the perfect man." Even though it was just a joke it sticks out in my head. I'm physically attracted to guys of all shapes and sizes; and ages for that matter. I'm not really attracted to men of color (though it has happened, and I'm sure will happen again). Love is a strong word and I think can even have a jumping off point from a luke warm feeling. I have all the time in the world to find this guy or for him to find me. Until then, I will not hold a guy up to what I feel is perfect because that's limiting myself. I can still dream though.. :) When the time is right it'll happen. That.. and it's probably worth waiting for...